In the darkness

"Only in the darkness can you see the stars."

Just because its dark, its not like you can't see anything. You can actually see the most beautiful things ONLY in the dark.

Just like in our lives, when we are in dark situations, there is always hope. You just have to find it in yourself and open your eyes! Because if you don't, your missing out on something beautiful life as offered you..

Its just your choice to take it or not...

Favourite Quotes

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

"If you make time to list all the things you are grateful for, and you feel the feelings of gratitude, you will feel amazing every day. Your frequency will be high and you will move through your days in love with being alive, bringing joy wherever you go, positively affecting one person after another. When you live a life like this, everything you want will come before you even ask."
- Rhonda Byrne

"When someone cries so hard that it hurts their throat, it is out of frustration or knowing that no matter what you can do or attempt to do can change the situation. When you feel like you need to cry, when you want to just get it out, relieve some of the pressure from the inside - that is true pain. Because no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to, you can't. That pain just stays in place. Then, if you are lucky, one small tear may escape from those eyes that water constantly. That one tear, that tiny, salty, droplet of moisture is a means of escape. Although it's just a small tear, it is the heaviest thing in the world. And it doesn't do a damn thing to fix anything."
— Chase Brooks

"Life doesn't give you a second canvas. So all you can do is paint on. And, sometimes, even over.."


"A liar should have a good memory."
Quintilian

This very moment.....

right now, someone is getting cheated on, someone is crying, someone is laughing, someone is dying, someone has lost a loved one, someone is fighting, someone is shouting, someone is lonely, someone is eating, someone is struggling to find food, someone is at home in bed, watching tv while someone is sleeping on cardbo...ard watching everyone go by.. someone is thinking the same thing.... .

Forget it

You cant always have what you want and things dont always happen the way you want it to go...

I know I get upset when I realise things shouldnt be that way it is.. but you just have to deal with it and move on..

I always think about how things should go in my head .... and how happy i would be... and when it doesnt happen, I just get upset but now I think about it, I realise how i could be so selfish to even think about it. I think I go overboard on some stuff and it's too good to be true. Im so stupid. Or SHOULD it be the way it is.. it just doesnt happen in life? Now im just confusing myself haha.

Life doesnt always work out the way you want it to go.. unfortunately. :)

Not forever...

I'm not going to be here forever, so while i am, I will....

smile, cry, get hurt, be angry, be thankful, have loved, be loved, laugh, shout, be sad, forgive, trust, be honest, try my best, give, receive, show, teach, help, have bad days, have good days, make people happy... ....

It's all part of life....

Photoshoot!

I was a model for one of my friends University assignment....

Fun day! :)

Happy

Right now I feel so happy. I just feel so lucky.

I am very blessed to have amazing people around me.

Even when I was down, I had great friends/family who supported me every second.

The things I went through, I am glad it's all over and made it through.

I didn't let it get to me, well it almost did but I stayed strong.

Everyone goes through these times, just in different ways or sometimes the exactly the same...

So you're NOT alone :)!

Just move on, be strong and help other people who go through the same thing.

Drifting!

I love makeup and going shopping but I also LOVE cars and doing mixed martial arts! I think I've always been a little bit of a tom boy I guess.

When we lived back in Japan, there was a time when we had a special celebration and had to dress up in the traditional Japanese kimonos for a photo shoot. I was about 3 or 4 years old. My parents made me wear this bright red kimono with a Japanese detailing. ( I look at the photo now and it's so pretty! ) They also put this BIG flower thing in my hair with clipped on! I still remember it.. that hair piece hurt sooo much!! This big flower just clipped on a little bit of my hair and it killed! lol! I got so frustrated, I started crying and just starting to take EVERYTHING OFF. My parents were like "Mari, the photoshoot is very soon just keep it on for ONE photo and you can take it off." So I just waited and as soon as the photoshoot was over, I just stripped and took everything off! lol!

There was also a time when I absolutely HATED frilly stuff. Example: Table clothes with frills on the end, frilly skirt, ribbons etc.....
I have an older sister and she was a girly girl. Everything she wore was pretty much frilly skirts and cute girly clothes and pretty much all her clothes got passed down to me and I just cut them lol!! Apparently she got really upset because I cut her favourite skirt!

So anyways, I've always been a tom boy I guess..

But now that I'm older, I do like some frilly stuff.. and I love the Japanese kimonos, I think they are so beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!

:)

Day off!

YAYYY! I finally had the day off from work/college today! :)

So today, I went shopping and bought a cute dress from Venus & Apollon! Now I'm just waiting for tonight because I have my mix martial arts training!! So excited!!

I've done alot of sports and I personally think MMA is the best! It get's me so excited and I always can't wait until the next training! It also helps me release bad energy by punching and kicking... ahah.

Last night I had the dumbest moments... here's what happened.

1.

Me: How many years for Olympics?

Aaron: Well, the last one was Beijing 2008...

Me: Okay sooo.. (in my head: 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012) ... 4 YEARS! WOWW It's gone so fast!!!

Aaron: (no comment, looks at me)

Aaron: Wait, so 2008 how many years?

Me: (uses fingers) so.. 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012... wait.. :| ohhhhHHhhHhhhh HA ha haaaa

Aaron: ...........



2. (Went to KFC drive thru)

Guy at Window: Okay so you wanted (meal) and that comes to $$$...

Me: Okay, thanks!!!!! (Drives to next window without paying)

Me: (Stops at 2nd window) Waitt... was I meant to pay at that window!?

Aaron: Yes............

Me: Ohhhhhhhh..... What should I do!?

(Guy comes to the 2nd window laughing)

Me: Can I pay eftpos here!?

Guy: No, sorry only cash lol (I had to drive out and around again to the 1st window to pay)

Aaron: Sorry shes Asian!!

Guy: LOL and shakes his head..

Me: lol awwwww shuutt uppp!

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Yeahhhh... I am NOT the brightest person as you can tell. :)

Well that's it for today!

xx

Everyday is a new day.

I am not as happy lately. I try to be but sometimes I just can't fake it.

But I don't want to live like this, even if I am feeling upset or sad, I will try my best to live happy and think positive! Because all in all, we move on, everyday is a new day. Why waste our precious life for something we will regret in the future.

I want to be happy and smile and make other people happy.

"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your trails. Explore. Dream. Discover." MARK TWAIN

xx